My night of passion
we where friends watching a movie, then we satt down and talked abit afterwords.
I love to see your smile, thats why i sayd does silly things.
but when you said yes, i just chouldn't belive it.
i was afraid if i start something, will i be able to walk away after?
You gave me a push i gave in, my lips touched yours.
i wished for time to stop at that very moment, now its all gone.
when i am with you im a diffrent person, you made me whole.
now when your gone, im broken down to parts.
That night changed my life, you changed my life.
i wish that we still chould be, but its time for me to walk away.
all i want is for you to be happy, you really deserve it.
after all you been trough, I know im not that guy for you.¨
but i will always carry that night of passion in my mind.
My night of passion av Christian
Salvation
I don't talk about it, People don't notice cause they don't know what has happend. If you really knew me, you'd be able to tell if something is wrong. They still haven't, it doesn't mather anymore im used to be all alone. Dealing with my own problems, i always have. Why whould this time be diffrent from all does other times, Why whouldn't i deal with my own problems alone? Maybe im wrong by being there for my friends, Helping them with their problems. I respect if they wanna deal with it alone, So far i haven't heard that from anyone but my self. Some want help from others, some don't i guess im one of does.
Salvation av Christian
Don't Give Up
I am trying my best, but it ust doesn't want to go the way i planed. I Keep trying everyday, I'm waiting for my turn. All i really want is for my life to finally start, But im still at the bottom. I've always wonderd, how my life whould be, If i where in the middle or at the top.
That doesn't mean im gonna give up. Life is what you make it, Bad thing's won't stopp happening to you or anyone close to you. Live with it or move on and let go, keep trying and just stick with it. I have a feeling that my life will change, I don't know when. Ill keep trying until my life will have a good change. I belive i can make it in life, all i need is time.
Don't give up av Christian
To love again
My mind has moved on, My heart won't move on. Late at night's when i think of you, I Can feel my heart pump so much faster. I don't know if it's cause it hurts, Or cause im still iin love with you. In anyway it's not my place to say, Cause you won't feel the same way. I belive i can say i've never feelt this way, About anyone ever before. What i feel can probably change, I doubt ill ever be able to feel the same ever again. Not knowing how it chould have been, If we feelt the same. To have seen what chould have been.
Ill spend my time, looking for that special one. who can make me love more then ever before, to love again is what i want. I know true love will always overcome.
To love again av Christian
who i am
I belive people make misstake's in life, Some should pay for them some shouldn't. But who deside's whats right or wrong ?
I want to belive im doing it the right way, i accept people for who they are and i dont want them to change.
There is nothing as a simple misstake, people make them for a reason. i'am who i am, if you whant to judge that do so.
Im not gonna change cause this is who i am, and this is the way im suppose to be. This life i live, i choose to live it.
People will always have oppinions about you, one way or an other. Don't change cause they say so, Belive in yourself.
i've gotten this far, Why should i let someone else deside for me? Don't pretend to be something your not, Cause you are you for a reason.
inspirerad av kevin , tack :)
Who i am av Christian Ringnell
Second chance? a new life
I have said my farewell and goodbye's, that i need to do before i dissappear and start a new life. I can finally let go, I hope that does i leave behind can move on with their life's. I don't know if there is a afterlife, so im only making my old one go away and making a new one. I wish that i just chould be reborn instead with a second chance, Not repeating my misstakes in this life i have. Only doing it the right way, Not taking the easy way. To make the right Choice's, to choose my own life.
Second chance? a new life av Christian
take a chance
I am a man, i go on everyday not knowing, I still wonder what women think, I have the feeling i like a girl. But idon't know how to be around her, how should i express my feelings when i talk with her? Or when i try, Cause i wanna make a good impression, so she might start to like me. Do i have anything to lose? i can however gain something special with this girl, This might actually be the woman i spend my life with. I want a special girl in my life that i can be happy with, That i also can express my love and happiness to. I really wanna show how much love i have to give, i might be the man. But give me something to go on, so i know that you like me too. cause i dont know.
Take a chance av christian
My fairytale
Have you ever had a perfect dream? Almost like a fairytale? Ihave, And i bare witnessto such a beautiful story. I had the dream, I feelt it. Almost within my reach, but fairytale's dont exist in real life. Atleast not mine, it dissappeared right infront of me. I fellt like i had it all, Best time of my life, the girl and everything else, everything was so perfect. it all changed with the blink of an eye, Everything feel apart. The girl left me , everything just started to fade away. I chouldn't stop it from happening, i tryed so hard to keep my fairytale alive. Fate wasen't going my way this time, i lost everything. It still haunts me that i had it all, but lost it so fast didn't even last five days. im cursed with this life, All i can do is to try my best, Make the best i can of life. And to keep chasing my dream. i know second chances doesnt happen, but i deserve a second chance. I just pray for that day to come, so i can have my fairytale.
My fairytale av christian
Don't think
How can you expect for someone, to forgive you for hurting him/her so badly? Not only that but you also lied and whent behind his/her back. Knowing how much He/She likes you, How can you do that to someone? You ask for forgiveness, Ask yourself do you really deserve it? Or do you only wanna feel good about yourself again? Or does he/she really mean anything to you at all? If he/she really means anything to you go after them, maybe that was all empty words. When you said it made you really sad that he/she doesn't want anything to do with you. You haven't even tryed to see what he/she is going through cause of you. Don't think just do it! show him/her what he/she means to you.
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Dont think Av christian
you mean so much to me
My love for you is so important, I dont ever wanna lose you. Our argue's and fights will always be there, i might not always be happy. But my love for you will always be burning, i say things i dont mean. Baby i love you so much , my fear is that you might leave me please dont. Even in my darkest moments, i still lovve you so deeply. i dont ever wanna lose you, i hope you do to feel like that. I never wanna lose you
Önskemål av kevin
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You mean so much to me av christian
my goodbye
it's already over, there are no second chance's in life. With out trust there is nothing, i did put my trust in you. But all you did was to throw it away, and you never said what i needed you to. im moving on in my life, and your not part of that life. there is nothing more to say, no excuse can ever be enough. i trusted you, i loved you, you where my friend. or atleast i tought you where, i've said what i whanted to say. there is nothing.
My Goodbye av christian
it's done
i've tryed so hard to be your friend, but did you really wanna be my friend or was that just a lame excuse ?
you just push me aside and hope i go away is the feeling i get, i ask you stuff and you dont answer me at all.
what do you think? i dont get any sort of outcome for friendship of your part, so i guess it all or nothing really.
i've been there for you, i've tryed my best to comfort you. im keeping your secret's, i dont say a word.
is that all there is to it? im good enough when you need me, but not the otherway around.
then you go stabb me in the back like this, keeping the truth from me. why did you lie?
thank you for finally ending this
It's done av Christian
Unforseen future
Destiny and faith things thats already forseen in the future, Can it be changed? Is it real? Do you belive it?
That something you haven't seen or feelt yet, It's gonna happen even tough you dont know what? My future is already forseen,
But can it already been made from my choice's? I know i can change it cause i belive, its not already written in the past if it havent happend.
Destiny and faith is words people belive really exist, but they really just are something comforting. To give you a drift or boost,
in life.
unforseen future av christian
Ungrateful
i just wish for everything to be like it used to be, for it all happend. everything is crashing down, and i can't save anyone.
why im i so useless, i just keep doing everything wrong. All does around me, dont know whats going on. it's nothing you go around talking about,
but still. This burdens me so much, its so heavy. Why can't it dissappear? i love you so much i cannot lose you now, i'wont let you go away.
i should have been nicer, i should have been more appriciative of your kindness. I'm ignorent and i tought you'd always be there,
Please don't leave.
Ungrateful av Christian
My Longing
i've been without thease feelings for so long , I don't know how ever my feelings will fade away. I've been longing to be able to feel like i do , with someone special like you. When im with you my world is perfect in all ways, and when your not around my world comes crashing down on. Everything about you is so good , as if you where an angel. I can't make thease feelings go away, i think about you every single day. I don't have anything to give you exept my love, i hope so much that it will be enough. i need you so much, i mean it with every single beat of my heart. your my heartbeat , And that's what keeps me going. I know ill be able to tell you the 3 words , cause i really do and i hope you do too.
My longing Av christian
kärlek ?
jag sitter ett hörn med ett brustet hjärta , allt jag kan tänka på är varför försvinner inte min smärta? Varje gång jag ser , hör , rör , tänker , på dig gör de ont. Du ändrade mig till något bra , du fick mig inse saker som jag aldrig klarat av själv. Att jag löjligt nog tror nu att jag fortfarande har en chans , det vet jag inte varför jag tror. När jag sitter i hörnet av mitt rum , så tänker jag på allt som hände. att förstå vad som gick fel. Ända svaret jag har på det är , vet ej. Men jag har lärt mig en ny sak av detta, att de är inte lätt att glömma något som va så fint i mina ögon. Jag ville ge dig hela världen , det vill jag fortfarande. Men jag är inte den som i slut ändan kommer göra de. För jag vet vad jag va för dig, något du behövde just då.
Jag har lärt mig att inse att kärlek är ett spel , jag går in i något med inget att vinna eller förlora. Men i slutet finns det bara en viss procent som verkligen vinner något, iallafall ett tag , dagar , år . Men kom ihåg att livet går inte alltid som man vill , och utalet "i kärlek och krig är allt tillåtet ?" visst allt e väl tillåtet men de funkar aldrig. Det som funkar är riktiga känslor och mycket hjärta att ge, jag antar jag hade inte tillräckligt och ge eller va inte tillräcklig som jag är.
kärlek och smärta av Christian (ps min första på svenska)
if i where that boy
If i only where the boy in this picture, If only life whould be that good for me.
What is it with girls really ? I mean even tough you tell them. I wanna be with you , I like you so much and that they are the one you whant. Yet its not enough ? Why is it like that ? Did i do it wrong ? All i really did was to tell her what my heart feelt, but it wasent enough. I keep thinking what if, Maybe she will change her mind ? To be friends with the one you really like. How will that afflict our friendship ? Will my feelings change just cause we are friends ? I just feel that it's gonna be a bumby road to walk on. It's not like its my fault, you showed it the way out when there was something betvine us. All my feelings was locked inside for 5 years, now its out in the open. Now its gonna be hard try to push it all back in , And go back to being emotional numb. I've started the process but it need's closure , Your the only one that can close it back. The words you need to say is that you dont feel the same way like you did does few days.
Thease feelings av Christian
Guardian Angel
Days pass by like normal , I try to go on like normal. All i wish for is for the pain to go away, i hope one day that u'll forgive me. I'm a sorry ungrateful basterd that made you this way. i love you so much , i know i dont show it enough but i do. i hope that one day ill be good enough and not dissappoint you ever again. why did i do this to you ? i dont know , i had no idea you feelt like this. im so sorry , you don't know how much this burdens me. to know that you dont whant me anymore.
my tears fall down like a rainy day, i've cried so much that i dont have anymore tears.
my heart still cries from the pain i caused you.
where are you my guardian angel ? show me where you are
Guardian Angel av Christian
my confusion
im so confused and lost , i dont know what im doing or what im suppose to do. all that toughts in my head just overwhelms me in all diffrent ways. i cannot find the way back to what it used to be. i try to be the same , but on the inside its not that way. im broken down in to small piece's , trying to match them all back together to one big piece again.
My confusion av Christian
scream
What am i suppose to do ? the tought's hurt , i know it's true. i just whant to leave this place.
when im alone in the darkness i try to scream , but nobody hears me. i cry cause of the pain.
it hurt's to know that everything was your fault, it is my destiny to walk alone.
once i tought i saw the faith light shimmering in the darkness , but it disappeard.
i always dream how it whould be , to be able to always see the light.
my faith is forseen and it cannot be changed can it ?
Scream av Christian
throw this card away
you made my heart go pop , and now i cannot stop feel , everytime your around my heart whants to jump , and i feel everything you do . my heart is going crazy without you.i see it in your eye's what u meant that day wasent real , i just wasent enough . it looks like its time to go on , live it out on my own,
i can't say i want to wait , but u havent said a thing . so whats that suppose to mean ? im i just what they call a flopp, that u wish never happend ?
then throw that card away, and let me free
Throw my card away av christian
Nobody is here
when i walk , everywhere i look , nobody's near , not a single sound or living thing , i take a deep breath close my eye's and scream to see if there is a response, there is none . im alone all over again
