angelboi

not knowing what chould have been or done.
diffrent stories will always be told, who truely knows.
nobody really knows the end, exept for does who the story is told upon.
back and fort they shall come, still it wont be the same end.
but how did the real story end? i shall now tell you all for once.
the boy starts something new, meets a beautiful girl and starts to make conversation.
joking, laughing and talking becoming friends, within two weeks.
starting to hang out like friends, spending time alone.
watching movies and doing all sort of stuff, until one night.
after watching a movie, they talked and had a bit of a laugh.
boy says a silly joke and, The girl says yes.
not knowing what to do , being unsure whats gonna become.
the girl tells him that she really likes him alot, unsure of his feelings he gamble's.
gives in they start kissing, and going even deeper.
looking deep in to her eyes, i knew this is what i want.
once i released wich was deep inside of me, it all just blew away.
it wasent enough for her, maybe it was me?
what i now had released chould not be put back in down in the deep.
i tried to go on but it was so hard, cause she really is something special.
my slight thought of hope that we chould be, it has now disappeard.
i have moved on to something new, i still wonder.
whould it whould be if it still whould be you and me.


no regrets av Christian

trying to find my place, in a empty world like this. without guidance, without knowing where im going.
praying and hopeing, to find my way. but its not going to come without pain, there is no solution to this dream.
even if i try so hard, why won't it go my way. the fear of not making it, seeing how my story stays untold.
im writing it down my way, trying to escape hitting the highway. fading away from this place to be,
losing control over how my life should be. the hardest thing will be to let go from you, with so many words untold.
trying to start all over, in a world without you. knowing you will be better of when your not around me,
finding someone new. to love, to cheerish, to be loved and taken care of. don't think of me like a coward,
leaving all my problems behind, this is not easy for me. this is truely the hardest thing i've ever had to do,
to walk away from you. This is something i haft to do, if you love me find it in your heart to forgive me.
im sorry cause this is the only way, im letting you go. don't cry, just start something new.
forget does days, and i apologize for does lost days. this is the hardest thing i ever haft to do,
remembering it every single day.

losing you av Christian

your on of a kind, your eye's are angel-alike. your smile makes my heart go all warm,
hearing your laughter makes anyone around you smile. your voice is like sweet music to my hears,
everytime your near it feels there is something in the air. the touch of your almost makes me feint,
your beautiful and a warm humanbeing. don't ever disappear, my heart whouldn't be able to take it.
your the seventh heaven, where i wish i whould always be. cause then i'd know we chould always be.

your special av Christian

there is always a place where u cannot define time nor whats going on all around, watching crisom angels play around.
but when there is no time to define, and no crisom angels playing around. what should i think, what should i do.
what happening to my ethernal dream of ever shine, the real world just came crashing down. responibility's
has to be taken, stuff needs to be taken care off. for so long i have wished, for does angels to still be playing around.
redemption of spiritulised aftermath human making, the world , the earth, will never be de same as for him whom had to do making of the world.
humans made this world to trash, for what reason but greed. to make money and be almighty, to dominate the world and money making.
where is the peace and love, when did we stop loving mother earth. lets try to shed some light upon the world,
even tough this is how its like. just cause im not a poet doesnt mean i don't like to write, this is all from my own point of view.


My point of view av Christian

i've been having thease feelings, i don't know if i really should have them. Your the girlb in my dream,
i keep having this dream repeatedly. i meet you in my dream. we talk , we laugh , we have a good time, and finally
at the end we kiss. its only a dream but yet it feels so real, overwhelming. i can't stop thinking about you, but im afraid.
what should i say? not only that what whould people think? is it wrong? is it right? love comes in all diffrent ages , colors,
languages, even they way of showing love is diffrent in all over the world. i keep seeing it, i keep reaching for it,
cause all i really want is to be with you. if there was only some way to tell you how i feel, maybe you'd see me in a diffrent way.
there are so many things telling me it wont and shouldn't work, i dont want to belive in them. i want you and thats all that matters
to me. i want to hold you hand, i want to kiss your lipe's, i want to be in your heart. what do you say lets give it a try?



i want you av christian

jag sitter långt in på natten tänkandes på endast dig, jag kan inte sluta tänka på dig. du finns i mina drömmar, du finns i min
verklighet. men i min verklighet vet du inte hur jag känner, men i min drömmar är du min. Att få gå hand i hand med dig, se dig le emot mig.
du får mitt hjärta att slå, för om de bara vore vi två. jag vet inte hur du känner, men mina känslor är så starka. bara tanken
om att få hålla dig i mina armar, dra min hand igenom ditt hår. Att få kyssa dina mjuka läppar och säga att jag älskar dig,
att få se i dina ögon hur glad du blev för att få höra dom orden. Om de bara vore så enkelt i denna värld, men man behöver faktiskt
va två för att de ska bli så. att hoppas på att du känner samma sak som jag, vore så gudomligt underbart. att få ha dig i verklighet,
det är något som jag aldrig skulle förstått. för mig är du något så underbart, känslan av mig själv är inte den samma.
men i min dröm är vi alltid två. även om inte verkligheten kanske inte blir så.


i mina drömmar av christian

i keep reaching and reaching, trying not to lose the feeling. my head is spinning, my world is crashing.
now standing here alone, in this ever empty darkness. trying not to lose the control ,
 just keep reaching for the dreams of hope. standing here with my arms wide open, just keep hoping.
whould it ever be the same, like before when we had this feeling. i have had a dream, and you where in it.
still broken, hopeing that you will catch me with arms wide open. never had words unspoken, and the feeling
like my heart was always broken. but i just keep hoping, not to lose faith. And just keep feeling my heart
aching for you, just beating to be with you. the dream i had, was to always wake up beside you.
knowing it whould always be good with you, so i whould never get my heart broken.
days pass by as there was nothing else but grey, but they days uou are here. my grey color fades away,
sun shining with all the clouds away. But what chould i ever say, to make you feel the same way.
without making you go away, fading away from my days with you. always hoping that my life, always stays this way.
with my no words left to say, waiting for you to say how its gonna be. is it you and me?

head on av christian